What is PROJECT 200?

(So I got inspired watching Julie & Julia! Incredible movie, so I decided to steal the idea!)

But this blog will not be about Julia Childs' "Mastering the Art of French Cooking".

This blog is about my own life journey…….

My history……

My name is Holly McAffee and in clinical terms, I am morbidly obese. I could pretty it up and say I'm chubby, there is plenty of me to love, I'm a BBW (big and beautiful woman)or I'm fluffy, etc. But plain and simple……..I'm just F-A-T.

I've never been the slim type. Growing up I always had da booty. But I'm rather proud of my curvy figure to be honest. Nothing against people who are naturally slim, but I like how I'm built. But I do NOT like how I've let myself go…

How did it happen? Well I can tell you and Oprah my whole sob story about how my mom died and my dad had some major drama of his own, and I wouldn't be lying or exaggerating, but I'm sick of the excuses I've made for years. I finally own it. Nobody made me eat my sorrows away. And I forgive myself too. But now, it is time to move on.

The way I see it, you can either sit around and be sad and complain about it or you can DO something about it.

I definitely have made efforts. At my heaviest sadly I was 414 (yeah that is like 2-3 people, or even 4 if they are build like the Olsen twins). I remember crying my eyes out the day I realized I was over that 400 mark.

So in the last 10 years I've utilized the fine expertise of trainers and done various programs and exercise on and off. But I think due to lack of consistency and sheer stubbornism (I swear there is a part of me that doesn't want to be healthy or is afraid) I have gotten to the 350 mark, but never below, probably due to some deep-rooted mental issue lol.

But I'm ready to put the past behind me. I'm grateful and proud that I am well under that 414 mark. I just want to not worry about the past and just work hard and finally make this happen.

The goal……

I recently met the love of my life (Adam Holt) and am sublimely happy! The only thing standing in my way is what I weigh lol. Adam is a dear and loves me very much…he is one of those very FEW men out there who can see you as a person and not just the physical.

But there is nothing more I want than to lose weight. I'm not getting any younger and really want to be able to have kids in the next year or so.

I feel overwhelmed thinking of how much I need to lose, so right now I'm just focusing on getting under 300 pounds. Every 10 pounds is going to be a significant marker and will be celebrated.

Project 200……

This is how I will track this journey. I have 200 days (this will be a like a month or so before the wedding) to get in the 200 range (less than 300, to be at least 299). So that is my project. Every day I really need to focus on eating right and working hard.

I will blog about the journey-instead of the joy of cooking, the joy of exercising. I really just want to make this a life change. I feel like my whole life is ahead of me!

I can't get to my ideal weight by the wedding, but I certainly can get a large chunk of it off of me which would be wonderful! We want to try for kids at the end of next year, and there is NOTHING I want more than to be a mother. I dream about our kids and practically cry playing with Kiya, Adam's niece who looks so much like him.

It is my time right now and I will not let anything get in my way.

My Heaviest (ick look at my face):

Me now:

My dreams:

I have SO many dreams of when I reach my ideal weight, but I'm just going to list a few goals for when I am under 300.

• Playing soccer better (be faster)
  



• Losing some of my two bellies J
  



• Being able to see the scale start with a 2!!!!!! (can't wait to see this)
  



• Can't wait to fit into my jeans!
  



• FIT INTO MY WEDDING DRESS (Size 26/28)
  



• Less leg/back pain
  



• To feel more healthy
  



• To know I've lost more than 100 pounds total!