Day 3/200: Project 200

Wahoo! I'm still working on it J Yesterday was day 3 and I did great!

Liquid Hell:

I was going to try to stick to my plan of only ONE Diet soda but I did in fact have two. I do need to make sure I am still drinking a lot of water. Much nicer to not have to pee every 20 minutes, but I do need to make a better effort to make sure I'm getting enough water.

I once hear you should drink like a certain # times the pounds you weigh. Ha, is the ocean available?

Grindage:

The thought of going to breakfast crossed my mind when I first woke up, but I quickly dismissed it from my brain. Reprogramming is what it takes!

• B: 2 toast w/ margarine, 2 eggs, healthy shake (oj, nutrients, fruit)
  
• S: granola bar
  
• L: turkey & cheese pita, tomato, V8
  
• S: cheesestick, yogurt
  
• D: Subway
  
• S: banana,
  

Shaking da booty:

• 45 minutes soccer
  

I am so flippin' sore today! My buddy Ian texted me and said I did a good job as his trainer last night as his arms are might sore. I concur!

Step it up a notch:

• Have only ONE Diet coke instead of TWO
  

Ku-DOS!

• Hoorah for not giving into my fattening food urges this morning!
  

Fatty Confessions:

So my booty is rather famous, or maybe I should say infamous. Its one of those that really seem to attract African Americans, and one time at the gym an Italian guy. So bizarre!

Anyway even when I was at my thinnest, baby always had back! So anyway, I remember one time at my Grandma's that I actually broke her toilet seat. I was so embarassed that I didn't say anything and ended up being really embarassed and horrified when everyone found out.

X96 Fatty Chat

So I was listening to X96 (add link) podcast from last week and I found that they mentioned my name again. I'm former chubby intern. Click HERE to read a full background on this. But just to sum up I was on the radio a few times and went in to talk to them which was pretty fun.

So the other day they were talking about how some people have gotten really upset over Gina's comments and Bill's about fat people and some of the fat people shows. One girl wrote in who wasn't mad and was just stating how she was asked to be on the "more to love" show but declined as she felt it was so pathetic. But then another former fatty BFOP (best friend of program) wrote an email about how she was so insulted she was never going to listen again and is declaring she will get others to stop listening as well. They mentioned that the first girl was an example of someone who has a positive outlook about their weight and how I was as well. So I HAD to send an email, even though it is so LATE to do so. (I was like a week behind listening on podcast) Boy I'm mean!

Greetings and Salutations….

(Sorry for NOVEL, but had to comment on the fatty chat)

Former chubby intern here……..I know I always seem to be a dollar late and a dollar short, but I just had to write in about your recent "Fatty chat" in regards to Lindsay's letter about 'More to Love' and the ridiculous 'Former Fatties FOP Unite' crusade, especially since you mentioned your beloved former chubby intern!

First of all, I seriously completely agree with Lindsay's take on the 'More to Love' show. It only took me a few short minutes of watching that show to realize it wasn't worth my time. Its kind of pathetic how they asked these women to bring their sob story etc, but the women are truly whiners with no self-esteem etc. Just obnoxious drivel!

I was a little drawn in by their commercials at first when they went off on their whole why are women on tv never the true average size. And that may seem unrealistic, but its TV! Everyone knows it isn't a true reflection of real life. Anyway good for Lindsay that she dropped that because honestly who would want to be associated with such people!

I REALLY wanted to comment on the other letter you got from the former fatty. I'm sorry but what a moron. I guess I can safely say that as she will NEVER listen to the show again ha ha ha. And none of you ever said that fat people were a lesser form of society!

Does she not understand the definition of 'exploitation'? There is a big difference with some of these shows. The Biggest Loser and Dance Your Ass Off may be humorous at times (and you have to admit it is) BUT they are incredibly motivating shows and the purpose is to HELP these people lose weight, so for the networks and the contestants it is a win-win.

The point you guys were making is that shows like 'More to Love' on the other hand are more exploitative in nature and that is the truth! They aren't trying to help people lose weight. They are EXPLOITING them. They know people will watch, so they are using these idiotic fat people for humorous purposes and to make money. That is the entire point.

It is so annoying when fat people get outraged as things like this. Something that fat women especially don't understand is that men actually find their self-esteem issues more unattractive than their fat ass. I know this to be true. Back in my dating days (before I was engaged) I seriously had NO trouble dating. I dated more than some of my thin friends and people were mystified. No, it wasn't because I was a slut, but I had something most fatties lack which is CONFIDENCE. A lot of the times you can make your weight a bigger issues for YOU than anyone else would. You can actually win people over with your charm etc, but if you are seeping with insecurity, no one wants to be around that no matter what you weigh. Its too much drama which is the reason fat people are so damn funny most the time.

(I mean in a way I do empathize with fatties. I'm there myself. I've lost a lot, but have WAY more to go and it sucks sometimes. Its hard to get yourself to the gym and deal with the emotions etc. The worst thing about being fat is that you know you did it to yourself, and its not really a problem that you can hide! But the thing is, you CAN do something about it. People who say you can't are lying to themselves and will lead miserable lives of obesity.)

But the complaining MUST stop fatties. I seriously doubt that someone force-fed you twinkies. Fat jokes are cruel boo hoo. If you would put as much energy into losing weigh as you do being outraged, you would be healthy! If you are fat and happy good for you. Enjoy your donuts and live your life and stop worrying about what others say. If you are NOT happy about it, then stop complaining about your sorry life. Stop with the excuses. So what if you've had a hard life or you have some health ailments or your parents are fat. Deal with it. That's life. Stop blaming others and take control of your life or you will never find happiness. Do what you need to do. Get off your ass and move more and eat less. Or else shut up and go eat a cupcake.

Much love! Your "More to Love" former chubby intern who will NEVER stop listening to the show (as long as there isn't a weight limit enforced)

My positive affirmations

So I wrote another ARTICLE and it inspired me to write my own affirmations. I really really like these. This weekend I'm going to write them out and post them all over the wall-Adam will LOVE It lol.

• I enjoy working out at the gym because I can feel the difference in my well-being that it is making.
  
• I love eating yummy & healthy food because it is SO good for my body.
  
• I will be under 300 pounds and will look beautiful for my upcoming wedding in April.
  
• I will attain a healthy weight and be able to laugh and play with our beautiful children and teach them also how to lead a happy life.
  
• I don't focus on the past and remain positive on this wonderful journey to improve my life that I am undertaking.
  
• I am very patient as I realize it will take time to achieve the higher quality of life I am seeking.
  
• When I make mistakes I quickly resolve the problem and remain positive at all times.
  
• I do not let the pressure of having kids or getting married impede my weight loss efforts because I am enjoying the benefits of the weight I have lost so far, and look forward to even more wonderful things in store!
  
• I do not blame others or myself for my weight issues because all that matters is that I am firmly on the path to achieve good health and I never waiver from it.
  
• I do not make excuses to not exercise or eat fast food because I know that it is worth the time and effort of making good choices.
  
• I look forward to playing sports and being more active and wearing fun clothes