Day 2/200: Project 200

2^nd day people! Sheesh the time goes by frighteningly quick! I so want to weigh myself but I have sworn to myself (and to Adam) that I would do it ONLY once a week. HARD TO DO!!! I want to know NOW. But good gracious, amongst all of the MANY life lessons I need to learn, P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E is one of the BIGGEST.

So I woke up this morning with this total desire to eat fast food. Sadly this is how I feel most mornings lol…… I was totally craving those croissants with sausage, cheese, and egg at Burger King!

But then I started thinking about how many calories are in those and it kind of grossed me out. AND, it's project 200 time!!!! I AM GOING TO DO IT THIS TIME!!! (I don't care if it kills me. I'm sick of the excuses!) I want this, but it's not enough just to want, I need to put in the work and the effort for it (damnit). Saturday will come soon enough when we can have a deliciously evil and yummy rather-fatty meal. (How pathetic it is that I so look forward to those days?)

Liquid Hell:

Well today I did have two Diet cokes (mmm sweet nectar of the Gods) but I still had a TON of water. Also tried a lemon tea and had coffee. Only had to pee like 6 times at work (instead of 12 like yesterday)

(I still am bloody convinced the REAL reason you lose so much when you drink water is because of how many damn trips you take to the potty)

Grindage:

I did NOT give into the temptation of going to Burger King this morning even though it sounded so gloriously wonderful! Oh how I crave the good stuff!

• B: 2 toast w/ margarine, 2 eggs, healthy shake (oj, nutrients, fruit)
  
• S: granola bar, yogurt, cheese stick
  
• L: turkey & cheese pita
  
• S: Skipped
  
• D: Subway
  
• S: banana,
  

Shaking da booty:

• 45 minutes cardio (30 elliptical, 15 treadmill)
  
• 40 minutes weights (shoulder & arms)
  

Holy tired! I admit it's been a long time since I've been in the gym. Haven't been a total lazy ass, I have played soccer and done some workouts at home. But it really made a difference. My friend Ian came with Adam and I tonight and it was fun. It is SO crucial to have workout buddies. Am going to be so bloody sore tomorrow.

Yeah I would have rather of been sitting on my ass at home, but you know what, that is NOT going to get me healthy. The cold hard fact is that we need to get out there moving more and eating less.

Step it up a notch:

• Have only ONE Diet coke instead of TWO
  
• Need to add more veggies J
  

Ku-DOS!

• Water!!! I drink so much of it!
  
• Hoorah for not giving into my fattening food urges this morning!
  
• I went to the gym and haven't in like forever (been working out at home)
  

Fatty Confessions:

As a young child I was rather fond of butter. Ok, the truth of the matter, I was a freak about it. I would put it in everything! I really don't remember (probably chose to forget), but my sister swears she once caught me eating butter plain, and another time she says I put half of a stick of it in my soup. Oh the shame!

At least I was young. But I have to admit another trick I would do as an adult. I'm ashamed to say I discovered this one day when I was making cookies or something. But seriously I would mix margarine, brown sugar, and oatmeal together and eat it. Disgusting I know!

Why try?

It is SO worth it. Again, I'm not looking back. I'm not focusing on how I've lost and gained and been on that roller coaster ride for years. It doesn't matter. I am still proud of the fact that I am now 360 considering I was once 414. But I will be prouder still when I can get to 330 and MAINTAIN it! That is seriously the first goal for me.

I'm not blaming myself (or others) or being negative. Whats done is done. I ate it. Only I can undo it. And I'm getting it done and I just need to stick to it plain and simple.